Sad News from my Mom

So I just ate my days worth of calories in the last three hours!!! I had cake, oreos, a cookie and lots of cheese and crackers....it must be my favoritest time of the month!!!!!!!! :) Yes, I am using that as an excuse.

On a really sad note, I just got a call from my mom that my grandma Hennigan died around 10am today. I never really knew her all that well because she lived in Scotsdale, Arizona but I always enjoyed visiting her when I was little. I have fond memories of sitting out in her yard by the fish pond on a warm day, listening to the morning doves while my grandma hung up the laundry on the line. SHe also taught me a secret recipe of making the best homemade hot chocolate from scratch! I think she may have just copied the recipe on the side of a hersey's dry cocoa powder recipe but I will give her all the credit.

It's so hard when someone dies.....She was my last grandma, and I only have one remaining grandfather left who is quite old. I was just thinking the other night how our lives slowly form new families as we age. THe traditions I once had as a child slowly evolve into new traditions with new people. My children will only ever know my father, and my grandparents through the stories I tell them. THey only live on through those who are still present, still alive. It is our duty to carry on what they started and left on this earth.

I am sad my grandma's gone. I want to make it to the funeral but it is in Arizona and I would have to leave Saturday through Tuesday. That is sooo much time when you are in college. SOO much time! But will that time matter in the end, or will going to my grandma's funeral matter more? I am not so sure right now.....there answers the present me. I am not so sure why we have all forgotten how short life truely is....but a hundred years if you even live that long. My grandma was 92, and my grandma Daniels died three years ago tomorrow. Strange how close! My father died February 11th.

Maybe I will have to make some homemade hot chocolate in her honor.

signing off as.......pondering, sad, but almost knowing...